I have been struggling to publish this post for a while now as it is the hardest and most painful situation I am in at the moment. I grew up in a church and was taught that God keeps record of everything good and bad I have ever done and I should be careful because one mistake could bring consequences that I never imagined.
I stayed away from God because I viewed Him as mean but still yearned love and approval that would quench the thirst in my heart. I made some mistakes along the way and with it came consequences and I beg God to forgive me and take the punishment away from me. It wasn’t until when I truly met Christ five years ago and knew the love He has for me did I realise His plans for me are not for evil even though some mistakes had great consequences
I prayed for a loving home where I could be my true self, be loved, grow and have great friends, He gave me and exceeded my expectation. They became family and my home was blessed and I felt blessed truly until I found myself in a mistake I didn’t create.
I prayed that God should intervene and help me in this mess; but the mess became messier, still I believed and prayed for a miracle and never doubted His abilities. I appeared in court several times about the case still hoping nothing was impossible and I would get a sun stand still miracle.