It has been an amazing year and I cannot believe I would be adding a year to my age in a week time. Last year, I never imagined I would be in a position of writing and helping people and I am grateful for the gifts that God has shown me. I have realised that the more I get older, the more I realise that life isn’t always easy. Some people have it good as we see, while others struggle through their lifetime, but ultimately at one point in our lives we’ll all be faced with a choice to make, which changes things some for the better or for worse. For others either way it would still hurt.
I spent most of my life trying to be like people I knew everyone liked and by then hoping to be liked by people not knowing by doing so, I was losing the very essence of myself. I am glad that the pain I experienced taught me something about myself and helped me become the woman I am now today.
Even as I continue to grow, develop myself and also fall in love with the broken pieces of my life, I am faced with tough decisions I must make. Either way, there are no winners or losers. Decisions to let go are not easy to make and I don’t want to be tied down to things that won’t profit my growth, I know I will shed some tears but I want to sow the tears that will elevate my growth.
The truth is seasons come and seasons go, the danger of making one season our home is that we miss the opportunity that the new season brings and also the promises God has for our lives. Sometimes entering another season might mean letting go of some people/things that are dear to us in our lives, which can be really hard. I don’t want to hold on to things that would stunt my growth and sap all my life given treasures.
I don’t want to live a life where everyone benefits from my wisdom, talents, gifts and blessings except me. I want to be the first recipient of the blessing God has for my life and then let the love to overflow to everyone I come in contact with.
I don’t want to sacrifice my beauty for the ugly insecurities of those who wish to suffocate my potential. As I begin a new journey soon, I will be committed to staying true to the woman God has called me to be and to grow from grace to grace in all sphere of my life and above all else I hope to always choose ME.