Before the start of a new year I like to set goals and aspirations for the coming year; some years I accomplish every goal set and other years when I don’t I move the unaccomplished one forward to change it. I had goals in mind to achieve this year but entering the New Year I couldn’t seem to put them down because of the pain I knew 2017 was bringing.
I had already lost a lot entering the new year and although I have heard people say suck it up, move on with my life and that everything happens for a reason which I may never understand but that doesn’t diminish the pain I experience every day or when I run into someone and I get asked ‘Why are you here?’.
There have been times I have sat to think about what I want from this year but it has been hard coming up with something because of pain. I have soon realised that pain in the indicator that brokenness exist. It has also been a gift that is motivating me to fight with brave tenacity and determination knowing that there is healing on the other side.