Dear 2017,

You are beautiful, intelligent, adventurous, full of life, inspiring and my best year. I never in my wildest dream thought you would be like this. I think it’s because, in the beginning, I had a lot of pain and grief I was dealing with. Thank you for showing me that there is light at the end of the tunnel and though the road seems tough, I will get my dreams and enjoy the journey. You are amazing and I am so thankful for you. I still cannot believe how much I accomplished this year because you kept pushing me to be better, to dream more and not give up on my hope.

You have brought people in my life I would never have met if I didn’t go through what I went through. You are beautiful from the inside out. There are so many lessons you have taught me that I will forever treasure and pass to the next generations. You taught me that no matter how the situation may seem, I always have a choice and I should never lose my focus. You reminded me that when heaven is silent to my prayers and tears, God is working something good for me.

You also taught me to me patient and never ever sell myself short because I am worth every good thing I have prayed for. You reminded me that I am unique and deserve the best because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, an express image of God, I am His chosen one and His daughter. There are so many lessons that I have learnt that it would take a while to write all of them down. Thank you for being you!

Lesson 1: New Beginnings 
I hated everything about this place, I never for once thought I would end up here again…. I cried for months and grieved the fact that I had lost my dream. The dream that took me years to nurture and I was almost at the finish line and then I was told to start afresh. I have never felt this heartbreak even my I thought I lost the love I wanted. This felt too much but then you showed me that with new beginnings comes new opportunities, new grace to begin again, new hope and dream, new expectations that I will still get to my finish line and most importantly new love that will refresh my soul. Thank you for reminding that although I started all over, God works everything out for the good of those who love him and are called according to His purpose; I’m grateful

Lesson 2: Restoration 
To be honest, I never thought it would be possible to enjoy the relationship I had craved for with my family. After all the tears, heartbreak and betrayal we all felt towards each other I knew it would take a miracle to bring us back together. I am so grateful that with new beginnings 2017 brought, it came with restoration. There were many tears that were shed along the way but I am glad it brought us back to love. I am grateful that I truly learned the meaning of forgiveness in this season. Thank you 2017.

Lesson 3: Miracle in Motion 
For years I prayed for a miracle, I fasted, I gave, I vowed, I served and I did everything possible so the miracle could happen. I waited and waited for a way out and then it seemed like the more I did all these things. The more the situation got worse in my eyes. Oh, I was hurt! How could this happen to me? I cried and I was mad at God for everything. I felt disappointed, it wasn’t until I listened to a message and realised my Seed is on Schedule that I realised that my dream wasn’t dead after all, that God has not forgotten me but that my seas was just lying dormant. I became at peace because I knew that this season would come to an end soon that I just needed to keep trusting God. 2017, I am grateful for the valuable lesson you taught me; I wiped all my tears and began to enjoy the life God gave me in my current situation and He sure did bless me! Thank you for this.

Lesson 4: My Favourite Gift
I know I have told you several times but you are indeed my favourite gift. It amazes me every day how God will entrust you to me especially in a season I was thinking I was bad but God showed me that no matter what situation I found myself in, He has gone ahead of me and He did see that I could handle it. I prayed, I wrote affirmations for you to come but since I didn’t see you when I thought you would arrive, I gave up the thought that you would come but I have since learnt that God’s timetable isn’t my timetable and you coming into my life didn’t seem like the perfect time to me but I believe it was the perfect time for God. I bless Him every day for giving me you! You are the definition of God’s blessings upon my life. You reminded me that no matter what I went through in life, it was teaching something valuable. You told me to take each season as a course and learn from it because they are my teachers. You taught me not to let yesterday’s sorrow corrupt today’s pain & love; that I am not here to repeat an exam but you grow. You told me to move on, embrace love and life at its best and enjoy the moment and for that I am grateful. Je t’aime.

2017, I cannot believe you will be gone so soon. You are my favourite and you also brought my favourite gift too. Thank you for teaching me daily to embrace the beauty of the unknown because it takes me places I would never have been. You are the definition of love & adventure. I am eternally grateful for the many blessings, lessons and gifts you have given me. Thank you for blessing me with friends in this season that have encouraged me never to give up! You taught me that it was okay not to be okay; that in the pain & grief I experienced, you also brought growth. I am stronger, wiser and loving than the lady that began the year. I prayed so much for growth but didn’t expect the mess that came with it, thank you for bringing it and everything in between.

I thought the sun went down on my prayers and I had lost the fight. Little did I know that my sun was still shining. It did look like I had lost but God never loses a war and I am his daughter. So, I am, standing tall with all the lessons this year has taught me and the doors that has been opened to me. I am proud of the Woman I have become and I am happy. Sometimes you have to fight a battle more than once to win but victory is sure.

One thing I never thought I would feel is happiness. You made me realise happiness isn’t a circumstance but a choice. No matter what situation I find myself in, you taught me to never be a victim and always look at the positive side and most importantly, never lose my joy. My joy is found in Christ alone!

In the year 2016, I prayed and believed that God will do a new thing in my life. I was devastated when the new thing I expected didn’t come to pass; but it definitely did only that it wasn’t the way I planned it. Thank you 2017 for opening my eyes and heart to see the new thing God did and is still doing in my life. I will forever remain open to receive all the blessings, lessons and pain each season will bring.

Thank you for constantly reminding me to be in the moment, trust the process and believe the one who started this thing because He is with me until the very end. You are the promise I had waited for! I love you!

Yours Truly
Queen Oreoluwa Esther

Isaiah 43:19 NLT- For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland