You are my lover, my best friend, my closest family. You are myself and of course, you are my everything! When everything fails and everyone leaves, you are all I have left in this world.
I have been watching you lately and it breaks my heart to see how much you have been struggling with work, family and your relationship with people including yourself. I know how hard it must feel to be in your shoes and I know you feel no one can be there for you when you need someone to talk to because you don’t trust anyone around you and that gives me so much pain; it is sad how often you given into worry and anxiety every single time.
But I just want to let you know that you will be okay!
I believe in you to make yourself feel better on your own. You have survived tragedy upon tragedy and you get by everyday. I know sometimes you feel like ending all your problems permanently because they seem to be taking up most of your life but you still choose to get up, live, push yourself and love yourself every single day; that is just to show how strong you are!
You are strong and with God, you will get through anything.
I know you often think no one will ever love you truthfully but I beg to disagree. Even in your present situation, you have lots of people adoring and loving you despite the distance; I know that you would rather be alone than having people around you because of the pain you are currently experiencing but never let it keep you from allowing love into your life.
Do not be scared to burn bridges. Do not be afraid of letting people go. As you have learnt in the past, God brings people in your life, some for a season, some permanently. Don’t hold on to people God is calling you to let go of. Not everyone you love actually deserves your love. Remember no matter what negative things they say about you, stand your ground and always think of your happiness first. You are allowed to give up on others but just never give up on yourself.
You are a woman of virtue, don’t settle for anyone who makes you question your morals, your values and your worth. You know your worth and what makes you genuinely happy. Don’t compromise your worth and happiness for anyone.
I know for sure that one day someone will come along. He will make you feel the love you have been longing to have all over again. Don’t hold yourself back the way you did before; just because you have failed in love in the past doesn’t mean you can never allow yourself to be in love again. Just because you have been hurt doesn’t mean you will experience the same pain you had before.
I want you to never let anyone, not even the people you love the most affect you so much that you lose control of yourself. Don’t let people or society dictate who you are, where you should be and who should be. You know what is right and what is wrong.
I know that you have made some mistakes and that they are inevitable; you are just human after all, stop beating yourself up and feeling like all you do is wrong. Remember even when you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
I want you to always fight for what you think is right. Do what is right and not what is easy. You deserve the best and don’t settle for anything less than that. I want you to open your heart and listen to people without immediately judging them. I want you to live life to the fullest, look for beauty wherever you are even if you think there’s nothing beautiful in your current circumstances. Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.
I want you to keep being strong, to keep living, keep doing what you love to do. You are still young, there are still lots of good things out there waiting for you to notice. Remember your Creator, your King, your Lord, Father and comforter, He has got your back no matter what happens. I know sometimes you feel He has forgotten about you because you don’t see anything happening yet. He is the very air you breathe and when you awake, He is with you till the very end.
I want you to smile, laugh till your belly hurts. I want you to give love without asking it back. I want your heart to remain pure. You will be okay, you are strong and with God you will get through anything.
I know it has been long since you said this to yourself but I’m proud of the woman you are becoming and I love you so much.