I have been thinking about what my reality is due to a particular conversation I had about 2 weeks ago. These past few weeks has been really tough not just for me alone but family and friends around me. That particular conversation ended with this sentence ‘You need to wake up and face reality’ at that time, I didn’t know what reality the person was talking about OR worse my own reality. So I took a break to think about my reality while looking at some facts:
- I am in a mess I didn’t create which make it harder to think of a good solution
- I am at a crossroad either way I turn to there is a huge risk to take
- I am in pain! I hurt from a broken heart and a failed dream
What reality am I to face? I think I am crazy honestly! Crazy enough to still have hope even though it clearly looks like there might be no hope. Crazy enough to still believe for a miracle when all around me seems lost and broken! Oh, to be honest, it hurts like hell! I hurt for a broken promise. I hurt for a broken dream and sometimes I can feel my heart bleeding.
Do I still believe that this dream and this situation that looks dead because it has been truncated will come to pass? I cannot hide the wounds any longer, they have spread widely that I can no longer hide the pain but still I HOPE…